Still Pregnant, and Still Barefoot…Just in Case You Were Wondering.

I am having a great week. Despite the discomfort, I am finding myself quite content and looking at Tuesday (the due date) with a different eye. Believe me when I say there is nothing I want more than to feel my water break this very second, but I am learning a new form of patience I don’t think I’ve ever experienced before. I am actually waiting with a smile. Not just waiting and keeping my mouth shut. I have always gotten by with the lesser form of patience where inside I’m fuming but outside I am not complaining. Well, no more! At least for today no more. 🙂 I make no claims on tomorrow.

I know some of you, hopefully most of you (yes I have no shame, I am quite selfish when it comes to prayer) are praying for me. I love that people pray for me. I can’t tell you what a difference it makes. I felt it when my mother died, I felt it when I experienced a tubal pregnancy and we lost our second child. I can’t tell you what it is, but I can tell you it pulls you right out of the fire. It is like you know you don’t feel good and you know you would normally be frustrated and upset but somehow it’s just not touching you where it counts.

I love this verse and this theme is repeated several times in Psalms but since I read it in chapter 43 this morning that’s what I’ll quote. Psalm 43:5 “Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.” I love that line “the health of my countenance” He is my smile. I think I’ve said that before, but He really is. I am not carried by the excitement of a new child…I felt that at the very beginning of pregnancy and 9 months later it’s still exciting but not elevating, I’m not excited that my due date is around the corner, I could go over. I’m just excited that I have a Father who sees me, His glance is what proves Him. He is ever watchful and will not leave or forsake.

Thank you for praying, thank you for caring and thank you for continuing to encourage. Even those of you who don’t comment, I know you are out there and have spoken or gotten e-mails from you. Thanks!

Oh…and I got a pedicure yesterday…wow…that helps.