Checkup

I had another checkup yesterday morning with Kathy Williams my midwife. I’ve realized that I go through a sort of monthly roller coaster with my pregnancies. I feel good right after a visit with Kathy but as the month progresses I become more and more anxious until she visits again. I begin questioning everything that happens to me and around me and start doubting that all is well. I think ridiculous things at times and just wonder about common things at other times. Am I eating right? Is there supposed to be a pain right there? Should I feel that? Should I be this tired? Am I getting enough exercise? Are my kids supposed to be this loud? Am I supposed to be this HUGE? Was I this big with my last two kids? Am I going insane? Where’s the chocolate!? And then Kathy visits and says something like, your numbers are perfect, or keep doing what you’re doing or best of all you look thinner this time. By the time she is walking out the door I’m feeling pretty good about myself and my pregnancy and the cycle begins again. However, now that I’ve recognized this tendency maybe I can remind myself that I’ll hear good things from Kathy and that I shouldn’t be so anxious.

Speaking of pregnancy…my skin looks better this week. Is that a last half of pregnancy thing? I can’t remember with the last two.

I’m about three steps away from nowhere on the nursery. I shouldn’t be that harsh. I’m a little past nowhere, but I’m not moving very fast. I pretty much know what to do it’s just that I feel like I can’t get to it. The every day stands in the way. I’m whining aren’t I? I’ll do it, I want to do it really badly. I just need to get a few other things out of the way before I start in.

Speaking of nursery…I have stored away a couple of items that might work somehow in the decor of the nursery but I’m not sure how to incorporate them. A little history: when we bought our crib four years ago it arrived with some damage to one of the end rails. When we requested a replacement, they sent two rails. Now, we have two slightly damaged end rails that match our current crib. They are metal, heavy and decorative. They wouldn’t necessarily match the theme of the room as they are, because the room is going to be in bright colors with a modern look to it, while the crib and extra rails have a classic/traditional look. I’m going to combine the two looks as best I can with bedding and layout. The rails could be painted, or whatever so they might end up tying things in. I don’t have to use them at all, I just thought if there were some practical or irresistible way to add them to the room I would do it. The room is yellow mainly with bright colors like green, aqua, red, orange etc. I want to paint these colors in crooked stripes up part of the walls and then paint an accent wall red and use the green inside the closet. The doors and trim would remain white and there would be use of all those colors in fabrics around the room. So, that’s what I have to go on right now. If you have any ideas for the rails let me know. I’m certainly not promising I’ll use them or pay any attention to your idea at all, I may twist it into something completely different or I might take it and run with it. But right now, I’m drawing a blank and if I don’t use them at all, they will continue to sit in our garage until my brain comes up with something terribly clever to do with them.