Daily Reading: Zechariah 12&13, Psalm 2, 32, 62
Psalm 62:1&2 “Truly my soul waiteth upon God: from him cometh my salvation. (2) He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved.”
The past nine months have been a test of who we trust. Our minds have been stretched and our faith has become firm in this time. My concerns have ranged from wondering what people have thought of our decisions, to will I have enough money to buy my son pajamas? I find myself grinding my teeth at times and wonder if it’s a sign that my faith isn’t strong enough. I am resolved however to plowing through. I don’t pretend to think that I am able to resolve the issues that we are wading in, but I am just stubborn enough to believe that I can get through these things without losing my mind. I can’t fix it, but I can laugh at it and I can worship despite it and I can give God full glory for each day, and each triumph and each promise that leads me to trust Him more. There is something I know, and I will not let what looks logical or wise by earthly standards become more powerful than the direction that God has pointed us in. What I know is that God has led us, that He does not disappoint and that from Him, cometh my salvation. No other avenue can be trusted. Kris’ job is not our salvation, Kris’ next bonus check, website jobs and tax returns are not our salvation. God uses these things to get us through and His timing has been absolutely incredible. We are thankful for these things, believing that all of them have been blessings from God and not from the cleverness of our own minds or the cunning of our own hands. God only is my rock.
Psalm 62:5-12 “My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him. (6) He only is my rock and my salvation: he is my defense; I shall not be moved. (7) In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. (8) Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah. (9) Surely men of low degree are vanity, and men of high degree are a lie: to be laid in the balance, they are altogether lighter than vanity. (10) Trust not in oppression, and become not vain in robbery: if riches increase, set not your heart upon them. (11) God hath spoken once; twice have I heard this: that power belongeth unto God. (12) Also unto thee, O Lord, belongeth mercy: for thou renderest to every man according to his work.”
I shall not be moved. I am set on a course and to move would be to deviate from it. I am focused on a goal and I have a defense to guard my way. I still believe that one way or another not only will we be out from under two mortgage payments but we will see that God has paid for this house. He wanted us here. I believe that beyond all doubt. When we decided to do this I don’t think either of us knew what a great blessing it would be. I think we saw only the house. I think now that God wants this house paid for and our finances opened up to His work. I think He wants us to give and give until there is doubt as to our wisdom and common sense. We will believe for His provision and He will render to us according to our work. Not our work for man, but our work for His kingdom.