There are too many things in my world that are “almost done.” I have a quilt that is now a year old in terms of when I started quilting. It’s almost done. Literally just a few days of stitching at 15 minutes a day, or one afternoon of steady quilting and it would be done. Of course then I’d have to bind it too, but that’s no more than an afternoon’s work.
Owen keeps interrupting me to tell me about spiders on the screen outside. Just now he said, “Excuse me mommy! Mommy, Excuse me! The spider is waiting for someone to come outside he can kill…but he’s dead!” Where does this come from? I’ve never told him spiders kill people.
My living room curtains are almost done. My buffet, is almost done. If you went into my sewing studio there are numerous projects that are almost done. Waiting for something, whether it be the right ribbon, button, elastic, batting or just a little more motivation and time. It’s really shameful and I want to change it but here is my dilemma: I don’t feel like I should work on projects until I have done my daily chores and lately, I don’t even get that done. Why? well, it’s this pregnancy thing. I get motivated, I do one thing and then I’m exhausted and I sit down for a while, then I feel guilty which is the same as motivation so I do another thing and then I’m exhausted again and sit down. There are certainly times when the sitting turns into watching a show or playing some mind numbing computer game, but it doesn’t start out that way. I think I need to set a timer for my resting sessions and then I’ll feel like I’m still on track. I’ll account for rest in my list of things to do and maybe that will help me not feel defeated when I sit down for a while. Anyway…you can pray for me and my sorry self. I don’t mind. I really think this can be overcome. Not pregnancy…lack of efficiency. It’s a matter of mind over Mary!
Mind over Mary? In my humble opinion- maybe you should just take a nap. You know that the baby is about half done as well and is taking the energy that you would ordinarily use to do all of that other stuff. There is no getting around the tiredness of pregnancy so why should you feel guilty about something that is completely out of your control? You’re one of the least lazy people I know so please cut yourself some slack- put your feet up, sip some tea, and enjoy watching your two beautiful boys play. I’m pretty sure it will make you feel better.
Just wait for your “nesting” to kick in. Then perhaps all of your “almost dones” will become masterpieces 🙂 Don’t beat yourself up over it. You are always very productive and have many projects (tangible and otherwise) to keep your plate full.